Face Your Own Surprise

by Jeff Johansson

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released September 7, 2010

written and produced by Jeff Johansson
all songs copyright 2010

co-produced by Greg Sipes
additional recording & production assistance by David Bradshaw
artwork & site design by Ava Savitsky

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Track Name: Here If You Want It
it's here if you want it,
and I don't know what I was thinking of
it's here if you want it

and baby we've both been battling longing
so call it a truce,
it's here if you want it

I've made my own share,
and whether it's unfair, or whether it's me,
I won't even go there

but where would I be,
if you never found me and took me to task,
it's here if you want it

though it may not be as clean as it was,
there's no telling where I'd be without you
we could roam until the world's end,
it's such a rough and tumble,
clutch and crumble

it's here if you want it, so what do you say?
do we run out today or take refuge tomorrow?

and baby we both know
we don't get too long before it slips away
it's here if you want it

though it may not be as clean as it was,
there's no telling where I'd be without you
we could roam until the world's end,
it's such a rough and tumble,
clutch and crumble

so what do you say?

it's here if you want it,
and I don't know what I was thinking of
it's here if you want it
Track Name: Like a Firefly in the June Sky
now that I’ve had some time to myself
I can see just what I’ve become
I have done just as you asked me
but I remain beholden to no one

you have been here through the ages
I have watched as you found your way
though it pains me dearly,
that you’ll soon be leaving
I would not beg you to stay

like a firefly in the june sky
all together, we held back the dark night
but when day comes
(there’s just) a warm sun
and where, oh where shall we hide?

I sat and watched the beggar children
and thought how sad it must me,
as if I had been any different
as if they should answer to me

but my days weren’t meant to be so deftly spent
and these walls could not bear my ceiling
but how a master like me
could be brought down to his knees
by the shame that I should be feeling

like a firefly in the june sky
all together, we held back the dark night
but when day comes
(there’s just) a warm sun
and where, oh where shall we hide?
Track Name: Pummeling
If loving was a game of do it or die,
you know you’ll never win, but you'd still give it a try
don’t undo your pain,
and don’t be ashamed,
you gave it what you could but
I was stuck & you were just passing by

it’s taking me back, through sulfur skies
from demon to angel and from angel to ice
I built the bridge, but wouldn’t walk over it
but playing it safe sure left me lonesome,
like the blink of the eye

What if we just stopped pummeling ourselves,
over and again?
Don’t you know every id,
has an ego inside, as dark as the river is wide?

If loving was a game of do it or die,
you know how it will end,
but you'd still break through the line,
still break through the line
Track Name: Two Turns
it’s been a week since you stepped through the door, and I’m gettin’ by
but even the coffee in the morning doesn’t lift me like it once did

each day, a springtime song is sung, see it changin’ right before my eyes

and it’s taking everything I have
to stay here on my side

but one day I’ll wake up and wonder where it went,
it’s not about getting’ over, and it’s not about regret
you took two turns, and away you sped
and it’s just like you said, it’s five a.m.
baby, come back to bed

friends, they try to get closer than I really need
the conversation wanders around, but it never leaves

each night, I go to the coast to hear its argument
on some nights I am the stone,
brushing the inevitable aside

but one day I’ll wake up and wonder where it went,
it’s not about getting’ over, and it’s not about regret
you took two turns, and away you sped
and it’s just like you said, it’s five a.m.
baby, come back to bed

and I will get to a place
where I can forget your face
but I ain’t there yet
Track Name: Goodnight, Evelyn
all I could see
was a beautiful girl
and she asked, could she walk by my side?

she begged me to stay,
but I was never there
it had nothing to do with my pride

ah, ‘cause what makes you proud today
by the morning has packed up and gone

I don’t think you can hide
inside the madness
and outside the light
let’s keep it unspoken tonight

there’s no one that I would rather be
except maybe myself in my memory

you only live a while, whatever makes you smile
engage while you can,
stay whimsical child
oh, ‘cause what made you smile today
by the morning you’re too scared to face

I don’t think you can hide
inside the madness
and outside the light
let’s keep it unspoken tonight

but once in a dream, she thought she could fly
I have seen this sadness soar when she's awake
she pines for the moon
and the hope she holds still in her eyes
I, for one, have seen the toll it can take...

and all I could see was a beautiful girl
that I wish she could see from the inside
and all I could see was a beautiful girl
that I wish she could see from the inside

so goodnight, Evelyn
may your lift-off be soft as your landing
goodnight, Evelyn
may your lift-off be soft as your landing
Track Name: How Far?
either you go as you came,
or you’ll end up wishing you had done some things
that you long ago told us
you’re not gonna do, oh no

how far would you go?
how far? how far would you go?

you’ve been at war with yourself,
trying to sell a broken truth
you should have known, it’d be hard to return,
when it’s worn through and through, oh no

how far would you go?
how far? how far would you go?

it’s hard to face when when things been written through…
but we’re moving on, and so my friend should you

how would you rewrite the end?
were you true down to the core?
heartache & pain made it so hard to savor
your just reward

oh no, how far would you go?
how far? how far would you go?

it’s hard to face when when things been written through…
but we’re moving on, and so my friend should you
Track Name: No one but Ourselves
I’ve been all night tossing and searching for solutions
amenable to both to keep above retribution
we sure gave them a helluva show
but the lights came up, now it’s time to roll

we used to laugh long at the foolish souls
kept their heads in the sand,
kept on digging their holes
but time happens, and nobody stays the same

now we’ve no one but ourselves to blame
for letting in the cold and not feeding the flame
and waiting for a break that never came

instead of living in denial, what we never could be
let’s agree on the lesson and set each other free
to wander through the forest, stay clear of the road,
learn to fend for ourselves when the night wind blows

so you stay in Denver, and I’ll head on home
wherever that is, I’ve always made up my own
oh oh is all I can say

now we’ve no one but ourselves to face
a chance to move ahead, instead of running in place
just look into the mirror and state your case,

we went where no one had ever been before,
danced on the sky, floated on the floor,
it could have been a bust, but it was so much more

so I’ll be gone by morning,
when you wake up,
open up the doors and pour yourself a cup
yeah, time happens, it's happening to us
oh time happens, just look what it did to us, to us
Track Name: Room to Occupy
until the water runs out, I'm gonna wet my lips
until the water runs out, I'm gonna sail my ships
you're gonna wish you were
alone at the oasis
until the water runs out, I'm taking it inch by inch

and when the rain does fall, I'm gonna lift my head
when the rain does fall, I'm gonna wonder
where you all fled
you're gonna wish you were
high on a mountain, safe on a ledge
instead of catching you by surprise at the water's edge

and I'm gonna pull my own ropes,
leave my anger aside
you're gonna face your own surprise,
what you thought was your life
was just a room to occupy

until the water runs out, I'm gonna get my fill
until the water runs out, I'm gonna carry it up the hill
you're gonna wish you were
stone drunk, face down in the well
instead of waiting for the ship to come
through the dry spell

and I'm gonna pull my own ropes,
leave my anchor inside
you're gonna face your own surprise,
what you thought was your life
was just a room to occupy, epitomize
and criticize what you can't abide by,
at the very least, at the very least
you were here to try...

to occupy, epitomize,
and criticize what you can't abide by
at the very least, at the very least
you were here to try

what you thought was your life
was just a room to occupy...